MasterkeyDiz – Week 13/14 Take 5

Happy New Year!

I absolutely cannot believe its 2020. I mean Y2K only fealt like it was a couple years ago. Dumbfounding.

I am so glad I was introduced to this program when I was. As I’ve stated in the past I had practiced lots of things we’ve learned here without even knowing what it was. Unfortunately that didn’t start until my early thirties. I imagine at times of what life could be like if I would have learned this in high school?

We are so misled by the powers that be from the very beginning and heaps of concrete dumped upon us is such a shitty deal. I can only imagine what the kids are going to be like when they grow up with all of the distractions from the games,  the cell phones, the twitters, the facebooks the Netflix, the amazons. etc. it is an overwhelming live stream of nonsense. Teaching young minds how not to think is a sad fact.

Whether you believe in conspiracies or not simply looking at the education of today’s high school senior versus 50 years ago is astoundingly evident. I have often said that no creative thinkers are truly desired but rather mindless consuming slave workers for those few who have mastered the right way to think.

Quite a lovely thought for weeks 13 and 14 I know, tis the holidays and I have allowed my old concrete to win. Fortunately for me I know I will be able to dig myself back out.

The traveling, the treats, the drinks, the late nights and no work, no gym or any classes really makes it hard for me to stay on point. I slip back into old habits so easily.

At least I have developed some really positive new habits and will get back up and continue to make good choices for my future self.

I know I am part of the whole but sometimes I just don’t think about it, then forget. I also know how much I want peace and harmony in my life. I will persist until I succeed cause I am natures greatest miracle.

My daughter turned 7 on Friday and that astonishes me even more than 2020. For those that don’t have kids and hears people say how fast it all goes, it truly cannot be understood until you are a parent. My little girl is a completely sentient being now. Her mannerisms, her vocabulary,  her wit is truly incredible. I am so blessed to be her father. When I first started this program she was just turning 3 and although some things may not have turned out as expected I am profoundly grateful for where we are. The lessons learned over the past couple years are going to prevent the same experiences and create new wonderful ones.

I am only going to think about the things that I do want moving forward as that is the only way to achieve them. The law of attraction does not care what you think about so you better be thinking correctly.

Lesson learned but not yet mastered. More practice is required and more emotion is needed.

I know like I know like I know.

Until next time….

MasterkeyDiz – Week 12 Take 5

I hated Christmas for a long time. It was the most special holiday for me cause it meant lots of time at Grandmas and lots of treats from about as early as i can remember until I was in my early 20’s. I still liked it, and would always make it to Grandma and Grandpa’s until 1997.

I do not know if I ever blogged about how my Grandma passed away and I do not really want to get in too deep about it now. Even though it was over 20 years ago the pain of her early departure in my life still brings tears to my eyes without any difficulty. She meant so much to me and was the reason I survived my abusive, destructive childhood. She broke her arm in the Fall at the coast from a sneaker wave. Then whatever medication they put her on started to have adverse affects on her. Somehow before Christmas she had ended up in the hospital. I never went and saw her which is the one thing I regret more than anything to this day. I loved her so deeply and was so scared to see her in any negative light and I convinced myself that she would eventually come home and everything would be OK.

It would be only the first Christmas I can remember in my whole life that I didn’t see my Grandma. I was dating a girl named Crystal at the time and we took a road trip up north to visit her grandparents. The whole time I was there all I could do was wonder if I would ever see her again. I did, but it was on her deathbed. The exact last memory of her I was trying to avoid. From that moment on, I hated Christmas and Thanksgiving cause they reminded me of her. I was so angry and crushed I could not enjoy either of those for over 15 years. Just typing these words makes me want to sob but as I am typing this I am sitting next to my nearly 7 year old daughter, Violet, who was named after her great-grandmother.

It wasn’t until she came into this world that I was able to feel joy again around that time of year and about her second Christmas that I could see that time through her eyes. This will be the 5th Christmas that i have actually looked forward too because of what it means to Violet, and my wife. She always loved the Holidays but my Grinch attitude was always a cloud for her too. We had a deal of alternating celebrating because it just hurt me so much.

Now, not only do I enjoy the traditional things, but really love the giving aspect and soaking myself in gratitude. Not only to or for her but wanting her to understand how blessed we are and how important it is to give to others who are less fortunate (give more get more). I have been able to use the law of dual thought to change my perspective on the holidays and thankful for it.

Persistence is key to change and growth. I am so glad I am doing this program again and grateful for the past 2 years of struggles so that i can appreciate what I have even more. I am also very grateful that i have learned that i am a creator and that i can make choices to improve my life and those around me.

I hope that everyone can enjoy Christmas and it is as special and wonderful that it can be for you all. Merry Christmas.

Until Next Time……………..

MasterkeyDiz – Week 11 Take 5

Got my DMP pretty dialed and looking at it from the perspective of believing its going to happen means that it ultimately will. Whatever you ask for if you believe that you will get it, it shall be yours.

Im doing well with my reads, enthusiastically and seeing my shapes. Service card going well but i need to redo my song and board to match my dmp.

Got my new golf clubs the other day and played well with them my first round. Very excited to play more and keep improving.

Had good meeting with our financial advisers and they are getting me to look at some things from a different perspective.  I really have trouble trusting the system for much longer so I tend to be very risk adverse but having a bunch of money sitting in the housing market could be better used elsewhere to earn more.

We are also looking for property to keep the energy on law of attraction moving towards the dream setup. So much going on, so much to be grateful for.

excited for 2020 opportunities

Until next time…….

MasterkeyDiz – Week 9/10 Take 5

Happy Belated Thanksgiving,

Even when im doing good I tend to do bad. No matter how great my intentions are, when it comes holidays traveled and vacations, I struggle so mightily with all the habits. Primarily the sits.

Yes it is certainly up to me to let everybody know what I’m doing and when I need my alone time but there are often days that are so full with unknown  schedules that it just happens and I am OK with that. Since this is the 5th time I have been around this program, I know that the ultimate goal is to be an independent thinker.

Sometimes life just gets in the way. Even though you make those promises to yourself and developed such a strong habits that some are impossible to ignore, you will miss some every now and then.

That being said I am doing very well currently. We traveled to Arizona for the holiday to visit some family and although the weather wasn’t as nice as it has been in the past it was still 30゚ warmer than home. I also happened to have 2 great rounds of golf down there. On top of the family visits it was a hell of a get away.

The sit with my favorite flower is one of my favorite all time sits and I only did it once during the week. 😕This week’s sit with the shape is crazy hard for me and has been every time I’ve tried it previously. That being said my friend, Jason today shared a picture with me that will help me visualize that better in the future. Regardless this exercise is some real Nikola Tesla Type shit, or in today’s terms, Tony Stark, lol.

However it is a step in the training process of your brain to be able to think through any problem. I sort of see it as a language or a exercise program that you may not be able to do a few of the parts perfectly so you’ll never be a professional status but you can do enough of the rest to develop legitimate skills.

I feel like I’m rambling but mainly I wanna say that over the last couple weeks I have had some serious struggles and confirmations about THINKING and what’s let inside the mind.

My friend Jason today really pointed out something very obvious that I have not seen from a clear perspective. I am going to alter the way I look at that topic and others important to me more guarded moving forward.

Life is great, I am blessed and feel more powerful knowing I have come out stronger and more confident because of the last 2 years and nothing is going to hinder my hero’s journey.

Until next time……..

MasterkeyDiz – Week 8 Take 5

You sank my Battleship!!

I used to love that game and I like the sit around it. Sometimes it’s harder than others and sometimes it flows like a video game intro.

I have reset the mental diet at least a dozen times this week. Much harder than last week and I dont like that, lol.  My daughter who is almost 7 hased push my buttons several times over the last week, and I know there will be several 1000 more times. I came really close to spanking her for the 1st time because she was so disrespectful and defiant. Ultimately of course I chose not to and just told her how disappointed I was with her behavior. Of course that’s all it took for her to apologize cause she is actually a really good girl. Blessed for sure.

We are traveling to AZ for holiday next week and looking forward to a couple rounds of golf.

I still need to refine my dmp so i can refine my movie poster as well as my press release.

Haven’t been as focused this week but dialed on my reads. I have also started listening to subliminal positive messages as I fall asleep again so I can pepper my subby.

Anyway hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving!

Until next time……

 

 

MasterkeyDiz – Week 7 Take 5

Ah, The mental diet.  So powerful yet so challenging. I think this time around I have the best grasp of what it means to guard the gate.

The first time around I was so overwhelmed with everythingmuch like the majority of people who take this course. Some things I did splendidly, some things I did half assed and some things I didn’t do at all. The mental diet was one of the latter.

It’s one of those things that requires extreme effort, diligence and consistency before it can be expected to really work. Now, like most people I have a significant amount of challenges and hurdles that make it really hard to maintain and string together 7 full days. That being said for whatever reason (actually I know the reason it’s called putting in the work) I made it 2 full days before resetting. It was actually my golf game and being negative towards myself that caused it.

I think that is a good sign because of how easy it would be to not be so serious, sense it is only a hobby.

I also recognize the past couple years of not practicing my habits or being consistent with the MKMMA program that I am in the position that I currently am in personally and professionally with the construction company. It is an excellent reminder to be hyper aware of the thoughts and feelings that can create undesirable conditions.

Even though some of the things I’m currently experiencing are not ideal I can recognize that certain things have come to fruition that I didn’t realize until starting the mental diet this week. Some things that I initially saw as negative are actually the fruits from the trees I planted in my mind years ago. The buyout, the move, the coup. All had some very negative aspects and honestly just until recently continued to cast worry and doubt on my thought process.

However now I can see the positive parts to all those, and more. In looking at my old movie poster (I am rebuilding a new one) I was initially disapointed that I hadnt acheieved most of my smart goals that were on the board that reflected my initial DMP. I haven’t acheived my ideal weight (though i am currently stronger and healthier than then), I didnt sell my shates (Rather I bought my out my partner) I dont have my 20 acre compound (Although an amazing 10 acre property with a very nice house presented itself to me but I initially allowed worry of making it work due to doubts with the business) but earning 100k a year working 1 day a week has happened, even more so. The amount of money I am able to earn without doing much work has happened! There is actually a picture of a new kitchen that I thought was going to be part of a different house but when we did the remodel recently it looks eerily similar and it just floored me when I noticed it.

My points to some of this rambling is that I am noticing, as the observer, that several things have happened almost exactly as I wanted them to but more seems to have happened slightly different than expected and only a few things haven’t happened at all or rather I should say yet.

Bottom line is I have been reminded and very excited about the fact that this stuff works.  I am seriously blessed and look forward to recharging the life that I want with unbridled enthusiasm and faith.

The stuff going on with my mom has made a great turn for the better and after 12 days of being in the hospital she has made an almost full recovery. As difficult as she is I am grateful she is still woh us.

Stay positive and guard the gate!

Until next time……..

 

 

MasterkeyDiz -week 6 Take 5

Well this is where the rubber starts to meet the road and I have slipped a little bit.

I have a press release since I’ve done this before but it needs some adjustment or I need to readjust my DMP again as a large portion of what I thought I wanted in the last couple years was a cannabis based business but after losing so much time and money trying over a year ago to make it happen I feel as though the universe either had a different idea for me or perhaps a different time period.  I need to do more sits about it.

I also have a pretty cool movie poster but its over 4 years old now and definitely needs an adjustment. I am completely blown away by what my friend Jason and his friend JC have put together as their efforts are off the hook.  It’s inspiring and a deflating at the same time because I know I am not putting forth my best effort towards the current assignments.

I thought my mom was going to die last Wednesday, so theres that. I think I had it one of my previous blogs about her manic state that’s turned very South about 2 weeks ago. I honestly think the home she is staying in drugged her with something they shouldn’t have that nearly killed her. She’s been in the hospital for a week and can at least talk and sit up. She was completely catatonic and an invalid for almost 2 full weeks and thought she may have had a stroke. Luckily she did not but she had pneumonia and abnormal kidney functions along with blown adrenals. It really affected me more than I expected and kind of took some wind out of my sails. But I know that’s today is a new day and it’s up to me to get back on track so that I can continue to manifest the world without that I really desire.

It’s funny how some things have manifested themselves completely from my DMP and that others are still out of reach as I currently see it. I need to be more mindful of the mental diet as I have allowed too many negative thoughts to get past The Guardian at the gate. It is easier said than done for me at times which tells me I need to practice more.

It really trips me out as to how thick some of this concrete is and with all of these tools and skills I still have trouble with commitment and consistent work. It truly is hard mental labor that most don’t want to go through but I am not OK with everything right now even though I am grateful for all of it.

I have allowed the past 2 years to kind of be on cruise control and need to take the wheel. The funny thing is I am still struggling with the fine details of what I really want. I do think that creative expression is a legitimate PPN even though I like to think I don’t need recognition for it but the fact that I plan events around my lilies blooming tells a different story, lol. I do think true health is one I need so that I can be able to do the other things I want but liberty rings more true.

I’m 3 months into taking a step back from my business and focusing more on the house and family stuff but feels like something else is missing. I love that I can pretty much do whatever I want but allowing stress and worry to create fear and doubt about certain things and I know thats flirting with disaster so I must persevere and stick to my habits and continue to create more possitive ones.

I missed yoga for a week due to travel but back at it tomorrow followed up by a vist to the hospital again. Hopefully mom gets out by Thursday and starts PT.

The sits and enthusiasm are still my struggles but have been really good with my other reads. Time to put things into gear.

until next time……

 

 

 

 

 

MasterkeyDiz -week 5 Take 5

So I really do like the sit exercise this week. Funny thing is my ideal place seems to be my backyard in the springtime. I mean at least a big part of it is. I have spent years planting multiple types of plants and flowers that have created a little oasis for us.

I tried to visualize my current yard up in the hills of the gorge as that is ultimately my very favorite view of all time. I also picture a big greenhouse and ginormous garden. Honestly though, if I was here for the rest of my life I would be very grateful.

I have had some continued struggles this week that stem from the construction company. We are not making enough with our residential division (technically we have lost money) so we have decided to shut it down at the end of the year. It sucks because we have to lay 3 people off that work solely in that department. Its a business decision but still hurts and feels like we failed somehow.  The truth is we grew so much over the past few years and our overhead became more than we can competitively sell for. We also dont have a “closer” that can ask for the big bucks like we used to. We tried 4 different salesmen since I bought my partner out and 2 of them stole from us and another was super shady. The one guy remaining is solid but still cant get enough money.

The good part is we have 1 job that could keep us afloat for a year by itself and we have lots of prospects in the multifamily arena. Still stressful but ultimately less liability and headaches than dealing with 50 homeowners.

I wish I could eliminate the doubt and worry that rises in my thoughts more easily. This program absolutely lays it all out to do so but it still is challenging a lot of the time. Being the 5th time around I cant help but feel that I have fallen backwards on some of my creative abilities. Last year I was so certain that the cannabis business was going to happen that when it didnt it kind of hurt my faith in the MKE and myself. I kept thinking that there was a reason it didn’t come to fruition but right now it would be such a perfect thing for me to be doing. I lost a lot of money and Zach a lot of time so the thought of forcing it too work seems counterproductive. Although as I type these words I wonder if I wanted it bad enough, I still wonder if it was going now if it is really what I want.

Its so funny how after all the reads and sits I have done I still am unsure about what I really want. I wish I would have started playing golf 30 years ago cause I could have seen myself doing that for a career.

Regardless I have been given a gift of time to figure it out. It is just the stress and worry about certain things that are blocking  my channels. I need more sits.

I did have a very positive physical today and the lowest blood pressure ever. My cholesterol is still higher than it should be but I have been doing Yoga and lifting weights pretty regularly for a few months now and can see and feel a difference. I have formed a few good habits.

I like this months scroll a lot too. Its easy for me to show my love and care for others. I have always been empathetic towards others, just not myself enough. I also have a tendency to not show as much for my wife as I should. I suppose the addage of hurting the ones we love the most rings true. 22 years is a long time to be with one person especially when its not what my younger self had imagined. Dont get me wrong cause I am very lucky and super grateful for what we have (most of the time) but she is so miserable at times it strains our relationship. Of course its a 2 way street so I have to take my share of responsibilities towards the success and failures. I can do better, I need to do better.

Most people I know would kill for my life and I am very grateful for all I have. I just know I can have and do more if I stick to the excercises and do the work. Knowledge does not apply itself but I can.

Until next time……..

 

MasterkeyDiz -week 4 Take 5

Well the last 2 weeks has been a little challenging on a few different levels but as usual it still falls on me ultimately.

Last week I actually had the flu for about 8 days culminating with a 104 degree fever last Sunday. It’s been a long time since I have been that sick and attributed it to a couple different things, primarily is not taking care of my physical self as well as I should be but more importantly not taking care of my thoughts and my emotions.

As I said in my last blog I was going through some stuff with my mother and her mental health which affected me more than I thought that it would have. I know I had a 27 streak day of not drinking and allowed myself to slip back into some old habits over the last 2 weeks which definitely did not help with my physical wellness. We have also had some significant challenges with the business and I am reminded of the fact that this too shall pass.

We have been going through so much over the past 2 years and have put out to the universe a handful of different things that are coming back to us in a different fashion than we expected. Which is the nature of things, as we do not always know the how but rather the “what” it is that we want.

We made the decision a few months ago to have my wife, Jenn, take over the day-to-day and since then there has been a lot more success with how we track and measure things. I had let things get to a point that they shouldn’t have because I was operating on autopilot from the way we used to do things, which has made us revenue but poor business decisions specifically and when it came to personnel and to spending to freelt.

What I am currently experiencing now is a reminder of  manifesting  exactly what we have asked for.

I had made multiple comments and affirmations that 2019 was going to be our rebuilding year and that even if we broke even that was a good thing because we are gonna be in such a better place in 2020. I absolutely believe that with all of my heart because that is exactly what has taken place.

We will technically have a loss for the company in 2019 but we have, weather by our choice or not, to clean house with personnel and have the unfortunate need to lay a couple other people off and shut down our residential division.

It’s sad because we have always made a lot of our decisions on feelings and not hard numbers and facts. When I was with my former business partner his greed for money was such a fuel to keep everything else going, that there was always enough to just keep moving forward, but in the last 18 months we have not performed at the level we had in the past. I didn’t expect to equate but I thought we would be able to at least keep it going with a small profit as we would be better managed.

Unfortunately the problem has been a lack of sales and a lack of good leads. As business owners we put ourselves through lots of stress and mental hardships with a purpose of a gain on the back side and our gain has not = to that of our stress. We also are not making enough profits so the decisions that we are forced to make are really not difficult taking all of those considerations.

I think for the 1st time we are truly looking at what it is we need to do to acquire the position in the industry that we want. For too long I had made the mistake of not caring as much so taking the emotion out of it I think has definitely hurt but my wife would say that we are getting exactly what we asked for.

It just doesn’t feel very good right now because of all of the clean up that has taken place and will continue to take place but as I stated earlier I knew 2019 was going to be a reset year for us and as much as it’s going to hurt some people in the company by laying them off it is going to make the company better, it’s going to make our team better and the God’s honest truth is the people that we have to lay off will ultimately be better.

We have 2 more months before the year is over and we will see where we really are at but we have a tremendous asset in our sales of multifamily, our senior project management, our estimating, our leaders and the excess that we have been throwing around is going to be tightened up which will make everybody more appreciative and more hungry moving forward, including myself.

I see this as difficult as it is as a blessing as I am grateful for everything always. I have said on more than one occasion that I am grateful for my problems and my friend Jason said that that was asking for more problems at first but then after reflection he agreed that it is an ultimate form of gratitude that I hold and that I will continue to hold because we have so much that we are blessed with even during the trials and tribulations we’ve  been going through.

We’ll no doubt be an equally stressful year as the business always has that aspect to it but we will be much more profitable and growing again with the right people in place and the right decisions being made.

This certainly was a lot of rambling but that is really what has been going on and I am grateful again for the opportunity to practice MKE and knowing how this stuff works because this is a another reason why we are making the discoveries we are making at this time and not after its potentially too late.

We have a good idea to expand an area of our business that we have not put any time into other than brief discussions but after letting go the residential portion of our company, focusing wholeheartedly on the multifamily and providing them with a maintenance and small repairs service division. Even with half the revenue that our residential was gaining we will do 10 times the profit so that we can actually see the gains of our hard work.

I often think about the things that I wish we would have done differently but each time I do I am comforted by the fact that we are exactly where we are right now because this is where we needed to be for our future selves to be where we want them to be.

As far as the daily habits even while I was sick I still did most of my reads and most of my sits my only lack is the consistency to which I choose to do the things that I do. That changes today and moving forward because I know what I want for myself and my family and I have to have those thoughts with emotion and action to get there.

until next time………..

MasterkeyDiz -week 2 Take 5

Well I broke my streak of not drinking at 27 days as we had an event on Saturday that we were a sponsor for. Didn’t necessarily warrant drinking but it  was a good excuse 😆. I was just taking a break and will be starting another stretch this week.

Ive been pretty good at all the work this week except for the sits, always the sits. If anyone is actually reading this the sits are #1 most important and the enthusiasm is #2, so do the work as instructed. I cant believe how good things are for me and i have consistently struggled with those two parts.

I sat today and it was good even though i was under the weather today.  I appreciate the fact that I get to remember this process and refine my experience. I am starting to think that my PPNs might need to change. I have perennially been Liberty and True Health but wonder if Recognition for creative expression should be one. I mean I love fliwers and cool plants and have created a wonderful back  yard butIm not sure that I care about the Recognition part. I should ask my friend Jason. Im not ready to bail on the liberty part but Im  making a great living and not hardly working currently but I know true health is critical for me as I have never achieved  my ideal physical self The older I get the more important my health becomes to me.

Life is full of surprises and as grateful as I am for everything I have it would sure be nice to have a stretch of time with little to no stress. Currently my mom has gotten manic again after 4 years of depression. Its very challenging to deal with because she transforms into a different person thats lies, steals and wont listen to reason. This time is a real problem too as she is feeble bodied from lack of exercise and has gotten a notice to vacate her adult family home. Luckily for her thay cant throw her out on the streat but makes for some very stressful situations that is left falling mostly on my shoulders.

I am reminded of how fortunate I am to be in this program again as it truly does give you the tools needed to deal with anything that comes our way. Like OG says you will eventually find yourself reacting to all situations which confront you as you were commanded in the scrolls to react.

Until next time……..