Well the last 2 weeks has been a little challenging on a few different levels but as usual it still falls on me ultimately.
Last week I actually had the flu for about 8 days culminating with a 104 degree fever last Sunday. It’s been a long time since I have been that sick and attributed it to a couple different things, primarily is not taking care of my physical self as well as I should be but more importantly not taking care of my thoughts and my emotions.
As I said in my last blog I was going through some stuff with my mother and her mental health which affected me more than I thought that it would have. I know I had a 27 streak day of not drinking and allowed myself to slip back into some old habits over the last 2 weeks which definitely did not help with my physical wellness. We have also had some significant challenges with the business and I am reminded of the fact that this too shall pass.
We have been going through so much over the past 2 years and have put out to the universe a handful of different things that are coming back to us in a different fashion than we expected. Which is the nature of things, as we do not always know the how but rather the “what” it is that we want.
We made the decision a few months ago to have my wife, Jenn, take over the day-to-day and since then there has been a lot more success with how we track and measure things. I had let things get to a point that they shouldn’t have because I was operating on autopilot from the way we used to do things, which has made us revenue but poor business decisions specifically and when it came to personnel and to spending to freelt.
What I am currently experiencing now is a reminder of manifesting exactly what we have asked for.
I had made multiple comments and affirmations that 2019 was going to be our rebuilding year and that even if we broke even that was a good thing because we are gonna be in such a better place in 2020. I absolutely believe that with all of my heart because that is exactly what has taken place.
We will technically have a loss for the company in 2019 but we have, weather by our choice or not, to clean house with personnel and have the unfortunate need to lay a couple other people off and shut down our residential division.
It’s sad because we have always made a lot of our decisions on feelings and not hard numbers and facts. When I was with my former business partner his greed for money was such a fuel to keep everything else going, that there was always enough to just keep moving forward, but in the last 18 months we have not performed at the level we had in the past. I didn’t expect to equate but I thought we would be able to at least keep it going with a small profit as we would be better managed.
Unfortunately the problem has been a lack of sales and a lack of good leads. As business owners we put ourselves through lots of stress and mental hardships with a purpose of a gain on the back side and our gain has not = to that of our stress. We also are not making enough profits so the decisions that we are forced to make are really not difficult taking all of those considerations.
I think for the 1st time we are truly looking at what it is we need to do to acquire the position in the industry that we want. For too long I had made the mistake of not caring as much so taking the emotion out of it I think has definitely hurt but my wife would say that we are getting exactly what we asked for.
It just doesn’t feel very good right now because of all of the clean up that has taken place and will continue to take place but as I stated earlier I knew 2019 was going to be a reset year for us and as much as it’s going to hurt some people in the company by laying them off it is going to make the company better, it’s going to make our team better and the God’s honest truth is the people that we have to lay off will ultimately be better.
We have 2 more months before the year is over and we will see where we really are at but we have a tremendous asset in our sales of multifamily, our senior project management, our estimating, our leaders and the excess that we have been throwing around is going to be tightened up which will make everybody more appreciative and more hungry moving forward, including myself.
I see this as difficult as it is as a blessing as I am grateful for everything always. I have said on more than one occasion that I am grateful for my problems and my friend Jason said that that was asking for more problems at first but then after reflection he agreed that it is an ultimate form of gratitude that I hold and that I will continue to hold because we have so much that we are blessed with even during the trials and tribulations we’ve been going through.
We’ll no doubt be an equally stressful year as the business always has that aspect to it but we will be much more profitable and growing again with the right people in place and the right decisions being made.
This certainly was a lot of rambling but that is really what has been going on and I am grateful again for the opportunity to practice MKE and knowing how this stuff works because this is a another reason why we are making the discoveries we are making at this time and not after its potentially too late.
We have a good idea to expand an area of our business that we have not put any time into other than brief discussions but after letting go the residential portion of our company, focusing wholeheartedly on the multifamily and providing them with a maintenance and small repairs service division. Even with half the revenue that our residential was gaining we will do 10 times the profit so that we can actually see the gains of our hard work.
I often think about the things that I wish we would have done differently but each time I do I am comforted by the fact that we are exactly where we are right now because this is where we needed to be for our future selves to be where we want them to be.
As far as the daily habits even while I was sick I still did most of my reads and most of my sits my only lack is the consistency to which I choose to do the things that I do. That changes today and moving forward because I know what I want for myself and my family and I have to have those thoughts with emotion and action to get there.
until next time………..